two years of college down. that is unreal.
I can’t believe that I am already done with my second year of college.
last school year was really tough for me. and I’m honestly not going to lie, so was this year but in a lot of different ways. But, I believe now that I am in a lot better place within myself.
In November, I got accepted as a camp counselor. Since then, I have been preparing in several ways for this June. I have been purchasing things I think I will need while at summer camp, slowly preparing physically and mentally and learning more and more everyday about different aspects and important details that I may need to know while there.
During my first semester of sophomore year, I was still in a gray-ish place within myself. It wasn’t until second semester-which was January of this year-when I finally got the peace I needed for oh so long. I was very glad that actually happened.
In February, I had to make a very difficult decision and decide that I couldn’t be apart of something anymore that I had loved for a while. I seem to keep having to do this lately, unfortunately. After a month of constantly thinking about what I should do, I personally believe that I did not make an angry decision. I had talked to everyone important in my life and was asking for their opinions. I also prayed so hard about it and talked to God about it while I was deciding. During that process, I found a quote on Facebook that said something like: 'Stop looking at the line, just figure out which way you are going to jump.’ I had to just do what God was calling me to do. Even though I was pretty upset that I had to do it, I learned to heal and move on from it- knowing then and now that I had made the right decision for the better.
During the first weekend of March (on Spring Break), The Crew & I took a weekend trip down to Cincinnati for my first time- I loved it! We even got to drive through Kentucky and checked that state off of my list of where I’ve been! We went to a day retreat on Sunday and learned more about knowing God’s will. We had beautiful weather, couldn't have asked for a better trip with my best friends. I hope we can take trips like that until we are old and gray.
April was a stressful month for me because I was finishing about 20 or so papers and final projects combined for my classes. It was very overwhelming because all I was seeing was black and white- Times New Roman size 12 font. I know that I like write but not academically- so, that was no fun. I finally finished on the last Wednesday of the month and now I am officially on summer break!
I will be leaving for summer camp in about 5 weeks, it is sure coming up quick.
This school year, I learned that you are not your past and that you can and will recover from whatever you were/are going through.
I have also learned a huge amount about change and that it can come so fast. I have been learning and will continue to learn that… even though everyone won’t always be in the area anymore, including myself, that doesn’t mean that they won’t be back. I have been learning to trust myself and my God and I am so thankful to have friends who we can change and grow with and still be as close as ever. Even though we are growing apart, our friendship will grow even closer.
I’ve thankfully learned to trust the magic of new beginnings and let go of the past ones that didn’t seem to work out.
Ultimately, I’ve learned to work on being happy again and as always to continue strengthening my relationship with our wonderful God!
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